May 5, 2005
11:27am Thursday

BECAUSE YOU WERE NEVER REALLY REAL TO BEGIN WITH

This morning my hypochondria was having a conversation with my bathroom scale. "Scale," it said, "Why do your numbers keep climbing even though we've been exercising so much and cutting back our caloric intake?" The scale, always obnoxious and on the lookout for fun, said, "Wah-ha! Maybe you have an endocrine dilemma! Maybe no matter what you do you'll always gain weight!" Of course this sent hypochondria into a tailspin, which scale is still in the bathroom laughing about.

It's so much dang fun to start exercising like crazy and start gaining weight like crazy at the same time! And I'm not pregnant.

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So. The new Nine Inch Nails album. I realized something while listening to it, and that's that there's no other band I hold to the standard of its first album as much as I do NIN. If Tears For Fears releases a new one, GREAT. I judge it solely on its own merit. Depeche Mode, even the lousy new New Order CD, same thing. But I think it's because Pretty Hate Machine was so good, and we're talking SO good, that everything else just pales. Right now I'm tryinig to find one good song to cling to, which I think is "Only".

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I'm thinking about starting a documentary blog, but I'm not sure that anyone would be interested. I had a meeting the other day with the woman whose story I want to tell (and she paid for lunch, by the way. No house-mortgaging necessary) and it went really well, although she's still hesitant because she wants to make sure her organization gets something out of it. I tried to pin her down about what that meant, exactly, like if it meant money, if it meant recognition, if it meant more clients, and I think it means money. It's getting expensive to run things, and she wants funding. I did tell her that I don't have any, but that I'd look into grants and she should look into grants and that maybe we can work something out. So I think she's on board, but it's not 100% yet. I'm going to send her an outline for the film and see if that sways her any.

And the documentary blog would just be an account of everything from start to finish and all the filmmaking detail stuff, but again, don't know how interesting it would be. Maybe I'll just do it, not publish the URL at first, and then if it's interesting (to me) I'll let the cat out of the bag. It would also give me a chance to experiment with blogger or typepad or moveable type or one of those immediate gratification softwares, which would get me out of this Dreamweaver system 9 hellhole I'm in.

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Today is 05/05/05. Is that exciting to you statistical nerds and astrology nerds? It's also Cinco De Mayo, which means there will probably be a Mexican uprising in the streets at some point in Los Angeles today. I'll now continue my thinly-veiled racism to comment also on the fact that the Dodgers had $2 day at Dodger Stadium yesterday, and it was sheer chaos. In the photo on the front page of this morning's newspaper were about 100 people, some taunting the security guards, all Mexican, with many reports of shouted obscenities, men leering and catcalling young girls, craps being played in the aisles, food fights, and people running out onto the field. In ten (five? three?) years southern California will be Mexico, and it will be chaos.

Now I have to go thump my bible and start some wars. (I'm trying to be an equal opportunity racist.) I never said I wasn't a cracker honky.